astonished at myself..

i've realized that in the last 8 months i have been ultimately alone, meaning no relationship, while at the same time..i'm completely content.

it sometimes seems as though others do not understand what it takes to make me happy. it may be selfish but ultimately it is ME that i think of first. even if it means no sexual contact for over 8 months. i must thank my doctor for helping me realize this.

and now i must get some for myself. ;)